We each have an inner knowing that we must learn to trust and rely upon. On Sunday afternoon I got the inspiration to call my stepmother who is recuperating in a nursing home. It was just a spark in the middle of the day, at a time that thought she’d be at the church service and I almost talked myself out of calling right then. But the impulse was strong and I listened. I called her and she didn’t sound good at all.
She said, “Make the nurses stop drugging me. They are giving me too much medicine. They have me in the hall.” I asked her did she want to be there and she said, “No.” I told her my sister and I would work on it. Then there was silence. The last few conversations we’d had she’d fallen asleep in the middle of the conversation or just asked me to call back because she was tired or sleeping, no matter what time of day it was. When I questioned the nurse I found out she was not in the hall at all, but something was wrong. She was obviously disoriented. I reminded them of her bad heart. They ended up sending her to the hospital for evaluation and deduced that she had had a heart attack. In addition as a dialysis patient she also had elevated calcium and potassium levels. And if that were not enough, she had a bladder infection. So many things were wrong and yet had I not called, they perhaps would have been calling me with that final dreaded call.
I am so grateful that I listened. I had a few deadlines at the time and it was not the best time to stop and spend the afternoon on the phone with nurses, caretakers, doctors, and family. But I’ve learned that when we care, we are guided. When we listen, the eternal source of wisdom speaks to us. When we are “interrupted from our mundane reality,” it’s because something MORE important needs our attention right then. It’s so great to not have to live with, “I wish I would have….” Today’s lesson is to listen, appreciate the intuition, trust it and act on it. Now she’s recuperating in the hospital and on the road to health, we hope!